A vagabond has no home
A fugitive is running from home
A stranger is away from home
A pilgrim is heading home
With what was done and confessed, I have no idea if I should ever head home. Such great transgression has taken place.
Nothing can undo it
Nothing can cover it
Nothing can avert its consequences
Even though I am glad that a secret hidden for so long is exposed and ready to be dealt with but one fact still remains: I have betrayed my community and betrayed their trust. I can totally understand if forgiveness is not at all possible, or worse, be spat at and excommunicated. Believe me, I have envisioned the worst.
All the ruckus I have created isn't just about me, but the others around me that is affected one way or another.
For now, I will be a renegade, a fugitive that is running from home until the entire case closes. The running may seem like I am unwilling to face reality and am a irresponsible person. However, for the sake of my own good and for others that I stay away from home during this time. I cannot say (or blog about) what was done, but I can assure you that it is serious enough that this post should exist.
Meanwhile, I shall ponder... and then make a very important phone call soon. I know that the journey back will be really hard and I still have no idea if I should make that journey.
Is restoration really indeed possible?
