I'd suppose this is normal for anybody when you think about it. As I progress on for change, there will be things that I have to let go of, and letting go isn't the best of things to do. It is dreadful. Sometimes there will be things that we can't wait to let go of, but then there will be things that you just simply can't.
It is a crisis of belief at this juncture of my life. I know that my blog has been barren for the past 2 months. I can even imagine the tumble weed rolling across my blog. It's cool when my blog cools off. It gives readers a surprise whenever I decide to post again. Ok, back to my future.
I realized, as I was weighing my options, that in order to progress on, I will have to choose to let go of the good and better in order to let the best come in. That's when I fear. For I am uncertain. Uncertain of what's the best. People may tell me it's the best, circumstances might dictate that it's the best, but what does God think? Is this the best from Him? Oh, how I need His counsel. Oh, how I long to hear Him speak into this area in my life. Even though my fears are unfounded, the very idea that I can't see clearly on what lies ahead is already enough to make me shudder. It is morbid yet true.
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5-6 KJV
Whenever I look at this verse and meditate upon it. I always thought to myself that something runs really deep in these simple words. "All thine heart" and "all thine understanding"... Hmmm... My emotions and my intellect.... Is it all that hard to trust nowadays? When I think of "trust", "vulnerability" come to mind. When I trust someone and confide in that person, I am left vulnerable. Basically being at the mercy of that person. He/she may betray, gossip or manipulate. So negative. So morbid. Yet these are human. God doesn't do all those. When I trust God, yes, I am left vulnerable to Him and I am indeed at His mercy. However, He does not betray, gossip or manipulate. His very words tells us what He does when we are left at His mercy.
"...and he shall direct thy paths."
When He directs my path, I may fear not. Even though we may be unsure of where the destination my path leads me, just the fact that He is leading with this sole agenda,
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." Jeremiah 29:11 KJV
makes me all relieved again.............. To give me "an expected end..." I do not know what "end" this is, but I'm sure it will be a good one....
